would u plz sorry me ^:)^

a lil' feeling which contains too much hurt, too much love of life, too much kind of illness on my mind, in my heart, in my soul. it's better i don't have this thinking, it's worst why i should have it. to say it, i imagine before, will make me easy going, make me get a better choice. but after said it, i feel unconfortable, i stoped anything which very good for me before. now ... a thunder come to my soul, hurt and wound too much sick in my heart. i know something worst just attack "my friend"'s heart, hurt it, strike it, and so much unlike feeling happen to "my friend." coz of me, yah ... coz of my attitude, my speaking, my ...........